Hair, The Final Frontier Of Coming Out

    As I was styling my hair this morning, fistfuls started appearing in my hands.  And so it begins, i thought, now everyone will know.  Hair loss is the final frontier of coming out with Cancer, with having to let other people know you’re going...

The Game I’ve Got Right Now

I’m getting ready to head out to my first chemotherapy session this morning and I’m petrified.  It makes me sick to my stomach thinking of all the toxic substances that are going to go into my body.  I know I’m not the first person who’s ever...

They Blinded Me with Science, and Heart

I never understood why anyone was interested in becoming a doctor, dealing with other people’s bodily functions all day, poking and prodding their patients privates day in and day out. When I was much younger, I just assumed that the only reason anyone would be...

Ode To Being Alive

When I read Keats’ Ode to a Grecian Urn the first time in 8th grade English, the first thing I thought after finishing it was puhleez, I could write this. Thinking back, that’s probably  the first time I knew I wanted to be a writer.  Those moments when my...

Pre-Op Musings

  So many thoughts and emotions are swimming through my head and my heart as I prepare for surgery on April 2nd, the least of which is that i just wrote “as I prepare for surgery.” Aiyuh, as my Chinese friends say, aizheng hen mafan! I’ve...